Change. A word that used to be a word to fear. I have never really been one to make a lot of change within my life. My anxiety growing up and for most of my life lead me to believe that change was bad and that things should always stay how they are. In the last year or two, I have realised that change only makes you stronger and gives you the opportunity to learn and grow.
Three months ago I was given an opportunity that never in my wildest dreams did I think I would act upon. If you know me well, you’ll know I am and always will be a home girl. Home has a special place in my heart, it’s the place I feel most comfortable and is full of happy memories. It’s one of those things that I have always struggled to let go. I was given the opportunity to move to Amsterdam with my boyfriend Alex and it couldn’t have come at a better time. My job was getting me down, I felt un happy, worthless and used. I didn’t feel happy. I needed a change.
So I went for it. I handed in my notice and got through two months of unhappiness for a change I could have only dreamt about. You’d think that since change has been such a difficult thing for me in the past that moving to a new country wouldn’t really be an option but it was an option that had me excited and gave me the feeling of happiness I completely forgot about. That happy feeling has only grown bigger since leaving my job and moving my life over to such a beautiful city.
Making a change doesn’t have to be as big a mine, little changes are equally as powerful. When something isn’t making you happy, you must change it. Making one little adjustment to your life can open up so many possibilities and opportunities. For me, taking myself away from a place that made me so unhappy has brought so much happiness back into my life that has lead me to feel passionate again. Passionate about the things that I love and where I want to take my career. I have the energy and excitement to want to work doubly as hard and to make my place on the internet mine for a reason.
The change that I have made in my life has made me happier than I ever imagined. In my head, I thought I would be sad and wouldn’t feel comfortable but it has been just over a week and I am so happy. Happier than I ever was at my previous job. Obviously, I miss my family and friends but my way of life has just got 1000X better and I can’t wait to see what comes from it.
‘You can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending’ – C.S. Lewis