Today I had an euphony…one which made me think about where I am today and how I am feeling after a tough week at work. Many things have happened in my life which have sent my brain into an absolute mess and today I finally felt relief and a feel good feeling. A feeling which I haven’t felt in a very long time. A feeling I have needed to gain back for the last 2 months. Something has clicked and its clicked in the right way.
Over the last 5 days I have been at work, working incredibly hard for our store reboot which was effectively giving our store a little bit of a make over. A lick of paint, a move around, a fresh face and boy has it been a task and a half. To make it even worse, it took place over a weekend…the time that I usually take to chill and give myself a bit of me time. Not this weekend thats for sure. My mind was consumed by Topshop. You may have seen a snippets of what I’ve been getting up to over on my Instagram Stories ( Instagram – @iamcharlotteolivia)
After an incredibly tiring work heavy week, I feel refreshed and like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders…which is weird because it hasn’t really.
Im gunna start with the negatives, just get them out the way before I chat all things positivity. The first few days of Reboot, I was really down. A feeling I haven’t felt since the stress of final year of uni and It was quite possibly a horrible reminder of the stress that I so badly struggled with. It was not a nice feeling. I felt really irrelevant and like I was awful at my job. I know I can do it and do it good but everything in my brain was telling me I was awful and I started getting it in my head that I was gunna be looked at as not being good because I was struggling with the task I was given. When in reality, It was okay that I was struggling because I had never done this trend before so its okay to not know what you’re doing. I was far into this mindset that I started panicking and it came very close to becoming a panic attack which I managed to save by texting a couple of people who just gave me a bit of relief that I was good and you just have these bad days. The down feeling didn’t go away but that feeling of panic quickly started to fade away. Safe to say I managed to save the situation quickly without everyone at work knowing. That was the first time in about a year that I have felt like that and I couldn’t think of a way out. So me and Sophie had it out with each other, we chatted about everything and I decided that enough was enough, I need to do something about it and BOY did I come back the next day with the best feeling.
It all began by firstly meeting up with my good pal Sophie before work so that we good boost each others moods before we’d even entered work. This meant that we both were on a high and wouldn’t let the crappy bit of work get to us and we genuinely had the best shift. We ran over by 2 hours but I didn’t hit a wall or feel down because I was so positive at the start of the day. I even created the best bag wall which oh my I was so impressed with. Like I kept looking at it and thinking yeah you go girl you have done a fab job on that. I may have left work at 1 in the morning but I left feeling good about my glitzy bag wall. Sunday rolled around and I was still on a high. I was in charge of re merchandising the pretty trend of which there are 2 statements, Heritage and colour pop. I went into it completely blind had nothing planned and it went so well. I struggled with the colour pop statement as it was all about bright colours next to each other but it was such a learning experience. Me and my manager went through what i’d placed and really started to get our heads around it and by the end I was really chuffed with it. The heritage side was fab. I re merchandised it and absolutely loved it. I had a bit of a move around half way through because I completely forgot to do something and It just made me think about what I was doing so much more and by the end of it I was like YASSSSSSSS YOU GOT THIS GURL. I genuinely felt good about it and then my manger turned around and said to me ‘charlotte it looks amazing, you should be really proud of yourself’ and at that point I knew that I was good at my job. It wasn’t the fact that my manger had said that comment, it was the fact that I knew I had done a good job and that It was backed up. I left work exhausted but I knew that what I’d done was worth the time I spent on it. To top that off, Our area manager said that the accessories wall looked fab. That just sent my happiness and feel good vibes through the roof. It was what I needed to remind myself that I am good at what I do and that I can do it. Sometimes It is just a few little comments that put your mind at rest and remind you to believe in yourself. Its what I have needed for the last 2 months and Im feeling FAB because of it.
It has reminded me how important it is to remember the positive things. Something I have spoken about before Is always taking the positives out of your day and this little situation made me realise that these times when I am down, I am fully focusing on the negatives and that is not the way forward. Of course down days happen and there is no way of stopping those. Its just a part of life but its the idea of not letting them consume your life and not letting them be the only thing you can think about. It just goes to show how positive thoughts bring a positive life and much happier life. Since Saturday I have been in the best mood and become the charlotte I am again. I finally feel me again and its the best feeling in the world.
I haven’t felt me in about 2 months and this little euphony has changed my mindset and its GREAT. To top it off, My blog is doing better than it was this time last year, I have had some lovely comments of my teeth which is something I have wanted my whole life and I am now at a point where I am happy with my teeth and people are complementing me for it. Good things are happening all around and its so important to cherish those good things because they just keep making your feel good pile bigger and bigger. NOW THAT is FAB feeling.
I suppose the moral of my story today is that the down days are gunna happen and sometimes they hit you a lot harder than you ever expect but its important to try and not let them consume your every thought and to make sure you inject the positivity into those days whether you want to take it or not. And when you realise these bad days are happening, do something about it and bring that positivity back because I promise you, It leaves you with the best feeling. A feeling of happiness which we all need.
‘Your mind is a powerful thing, when you fill it with positive thoughts your life will start to change’